After having a talk with my best bud and talking about my weight loss/health goals and how I am not meeting them, I am feeling bummed. I haven’t been eating or exercising like I’d like to be. I’ve gained back a couple pounds and inches and my body fat percentage has increased. Sometimes I feel like my weight loss journey is like a bicycle chain. One link comes off and then quickly the whole chain comes off. Then it takes a lot of time and energy to put it back on. That’s where I am again. I’m feeling frustrated, mostly with myself. I’m also having negative thoughts (i.e. I’m fat and ugly). Only a short six weeks ago, I was feeling healthy and sexy and happy and now I’m back to feeling down on myself. It can happen so quickly.
I know this isn’t a chipper post, but sometimes you just gotta be real. And, this is how I’m feeling today. I would like to say that I have been rocking the last couple days with my fruit and veggie intake (mostly due to all the fresh veggies in my garden!), so there’s hope! My goal is to wake my butt up every morning at 5am and not go directly to the couch but instead drink some ice water and head to the gym!
The best laid plans…we’ll see what happens. Right now, I just kinda feel like crying. Not sure why I’m so emotional, though it probably has some relation to my reason for trying to lose weight. That’s a topic for another day, though.
Well, any encouragement is appreciation and especially prayers are welcome!